The Other Me

I saw this poem on the net as i was surfing ...i  liked it though its not a great piece of poem .I saved it to my HD . As i dont have anything else to post .thought of posting this piece..nice feel..

I close my eyes and see your smiling face.
I always wonder If it's real or fake,
Can someone please tell me??
Im dieing each day,
The blood stained knife shows what i have done.
The pain i have felt doesn't bother me anymore,
Im dieing more and more each day,
From your painfull ways.
Why can't you just tell me why??
Im missing you more and more each day,
And im loving you more and more each day.
But you just can't see it past you horibble ways.
Look around you'll see my smiling face...
Cause im missing you.
                                    

                    MY piece..

If missing you could black out the stars there would be no midnight show, if missing you could make it rain the seas would overflow, if missing you could make it hot, there would be deserts all around, if missing you could silence noise the earth would have no sound.If missing you could make me die,then iam dead ..

Ramu's(Ram Gopal varma) forthcoming film RAKTA CHARITRA is just getting bigger & better by the day. Well how? First the maverick filmmaker Ramu chose an intricate subject (based on a real life story of Paritala Ravi from Andhra Pradesh who got assassinated in January 2005) for his film and roped in actor Vivek Oberoi, who had struck gold in his very first film with RGV, to play the lead character of Paritala Ravi. 

Now Ramu has gone one step ahead and signed on Tamil film industry's superstar Surya for RAKTA CHARITRA. Surya who was the main lead in the original version of GHAJINI will make his Bollywood debut with Ramu's RAKTA CHARITRA. 

I decided to film this story at one stretch and release it in 2 parts about 3 months from each other, a first of its kind ever attempted in the history of Indian cinema. I want to call the films Rakta Charitra- I and Rakta Charitra-II. Why I want to make it in 2 parts is because, the sheer drama and content the story possesses is so incredibly rich and of such high magnitude that it is not possible to do justice to do it in a film which is lesser than 5 hours. Also Ravi’s life can be broadly divided into 2 parts from the time how circumstances created his rise to how he created circumstances that felled him,says Ramu.

Discloses Ramu, 'I decided to cast Surya in (another important character) Suri's role primarily because of the extraordinary intensity he has in his eyes and in his 
demeanor which I noticed in the original version of GHAJINI. The dynamism of his body language and the fiery strength of his personality almost threatens to burn up the screen.'

CHECK OUT : I am thrilled with positive reaction to RAKTA CHARITRA 

The Tamil actor will star opposite Vivek Oberoi in this two-part film, which tells the story of politician and alleged murderer Paritala Ravi. 'Suri is going to appear in the last scene of RAKTA CHARITRA- Part I, after the Ramanaidu studio blast scene as its only then when anyone ever heard of him,' Ramu reveals about Surya's part. 

And Ramu is highly confident about his new film. Says Ramu in an energized tone 'I believe that RAKTA CHARITRA is going to be the most defining film of my career not because of how well I will make it but sheerly because of the material I have at hand.' 

Recently no Tamil Hero has done it and Our Very Own SURYA is going to bollywood..Steping up  the next stone...All The Best SURYA>... u RAWK

This day in my life is the day which introduced me all feelings that i had towards my special one.

I actually missed a special friend of mine  for the past few days and I  tried silly ways to contact her and that had totally spoiled few things.It was today when she called me up and talked various things about us.I actually understood more about this girl today.She used to be a very bold girl and i feel guilty for making this girl cry (i wish you dont have any more sorrows in your life).I understood how much she loved me when she cried and even understood how much i loved her and I  am happy that i had her and will have her in my life..We decided to move on together as friends (painfull but still..)..

That phone call lasted for about 28 mins and I remember every single word that she said and unserstood her respect for her father.I really dont know how lucky iam to have such a girl but her parents are really  lucky to have her..I cried as i was badly  depressed(after a looong time) , but when i thought about the words she spoke to me i stopped crying as that would insult both our love for eachother..

I strongly believe that only thing you need to do to get something is to be sincere to it..I am sincere and she too is sincere ,so i believe that i will have her in my life.when I kept the phone down after the conversation I actually started to love her more than i ever loved her.

I actually read a sms after that call,it had the message"you tend to change for the one you love and the one who loves you the most will change you"

It was too close to me in  the sense I have changed a lot since i met(spoke to) her and now am completely changed because i always tend to change myself for her and she changed me..Now am with so much memories that everything around me will always remain you in someway.. you will always be cherished in my life and only one to be cherished..

Love you a lot... be in my life always..I will wait..

I have my exams on 21st ..have to study .hope i will do my exams well..

Its been so long since i posted my last post..

Even now am not intrested to post,but still i am posting ...Blabbering.

There were times in the past where i used to sit down so dumb almost of no care about the world and my surroundings especially ..

As we all know life is a rollercoaster ride with various twists and turns that actually introduces  different persons and different  perspectives of life that we are intrested and sometimes  not intrested to meet.. But the misery is that we  cannot ride our RC..It randomly selects people and takes some of them along with you for a short ride and some for a long ride through a track decided by the RC itself..

Some people getdown so soon that they dont even stay in your memory and some travel with you for a while and leave traces of their presence that we cherish and some people leave you in sorrow as they getdown and will make you feel cursed not because of their presence but because of their absence.and some make you feel bad that you had them in your ride..

When I used to be so careless unknowing the basic meaning of life ,I was happy ,not that iam sad now ,but i often feel so badly depressed for small reasons(trying to console myself by treating it a small reason)...Whenever you are depressed you tend to feel wrong and take wrong decisions ,i should thank god that he had made me a little strong to hold me back from taking wrong decisions though i take some ,that are purely due to me being washed away by my emotions,but i tend to think everything in a wrong way which Iam regreting all the day...

Hope that all ends well...